“So, “said one of my grade 7 kid “you’re not a Christian anymore?”. He said that when I told him to go the lake, take a swim and not come back. The kid can't read, he had a very thick incident report starting when he was still in grade one and he was suspended for a week the year before I came. The very same week he was supposed to go to Red River to present his Science Fair Project. It was my own Carol Collins 'aha'.I thought I was prepared for any kind of teaching I have 22 years of teaching adolescent kids in the Philippines, an undergraduate degree, a graduate degree, and post graduate courses. And I have handled all type of students, rich, poor, very poor, brilliant, not so brilliant, fast learners, slow learners. I was found wrong. I was not prepared for these kids raised on the reserve.
My early thoughts were that these kids were just irresponsible kids who should have known better. They just need a figure of authority, a father figure since almost 75 % of them were leaving with poster parents or were being raised by a single Mom. Again I was found wrong. Unfortunately they have a very poor response to authority.
There are three stages to critical consciousness, said Freire as quoted by Collins; the semi intransitive, which is purely survival and 'magical acceptance', the transitive stage, the naive transitivity where problems were simplified and a wish for 'what it was solution' was highly regarded and proffered, and the critically transitive consciousness, Whereby one's 'findings' were tested and by openness to revision. By refusing to transfer responsibility and by rejecting passive positions. Which is one way of saying changing things that I can change and accepting those things that I cannot. Which is not really saying surrendering and/or joining. And the critical thread that connects these three and thereby making these three levels of consciousness a stage and not three separate level, the praxis, a cycle of action-reflection – action, which is central to Freire's concept of conscientization.
The first time the whole class was so unruly, when everybody is talking at the same time cursing and swearing and laughing I yelled at them. I was so disappointed, so depressed and so distraught. Three months later I’m not yelling at them anymore, I am merely raising my voice to get their attention and they were not laughing anymore, just a little smile but the cursing and the swearing had marginally decreased. Its either they change or my perception of them had change. I did know something for sure, I changed. I would look at them and see my 20 year old girl when she was 14 and I would listen to them and minus the swearing and cursing I am hearing my nine year old boy. It’s the praxis working on me, I think, action-reflection-action.
How would this affect the changes on my logic model? It would, I believe focus on my total attitude towards the design of the program. The program would be touching the lives of those who will be implementing it and those who will be its recipients. It’s not a static kind of thing wherein every input necessarily translates to an output. The interplay and interactions would be dynamic and in the design of the program the play of all the stakeholders would have to be taken into account.
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